A Bit Worried

February can be a bit of a hard month for me,  and this Feb especially the beginning is no different to any other Feb except i have a great man there for me when i need that hug or cheering up.,, my eldest will be 20 in the early part of Feb which is amazing, cause if you have read my blogs before you you will know he had open heart surgery when he was 7 weeks old,  but Feb is the start of it, and it always takes me back, but this is not what i am worried about,, as part of my sons medical care he is having a Exercise test done on the 10th of Feb in London, this always worries me as to what they discover but he has had great results so far but does have blood pressure as a result of his surgery… I am sure all will be fine, but a shame to be so close to his birthday too…

on the 12th of Feb it’s my turn for Surgery, I have a umbilical hernia, it was discovered a year ago and now its quite tender and painful,  making it hard to eat anything  now,  but i am very worried about this up and coming surgery.. I do have a real diagnosed pain phobia, so i have to make ways of distracting myself until its over and done with and the worst day will be op day i know, lots of waiting about.. I did tell the Nurse i have a pain phobia so hopefully i wont see the needle or anything,  and i will enjoy the long sleep and then wake up and recover and go home that evening..  i know it will be painful and the stomach will be filled with air,  so i need to mentally prepare for lots of things.. I will be staying with my mum so she will make sure i am ok,  may be get to go away with my fella too if i feel ok but that will be decided at the time.. Dad says no, eldest son says no so i may be over ruled..

In the meantime i need to buy pain relief and neurofen and something called peppermint water…need to look for that. But i will ask if any readers have had Keyhole for a Umbilical Hernia then please do give me any information. I do intend to take a small cross stitch to the hospital and my mums and my laptop although i wont be able to use the net in the hospital but that will be my trusty mobile for that..

Its getting late now so i will say night night and be back tomorrow or a few days

What a lovely day


Here in the UK parts of the country had snow, some more than others, where i live we have about 3 inches which is enough to cause trouble..  I live in a rural area so cars had trouble getting in and out of the village, and journeys took twice as long,, I must admit it looked very pretty with snow on the trees down the road side, but sadly i couldn’t stop to take photos… I spent the day with my parents and eldest, so a little trip into town, the odd purchase and a haircut but the all important coffee with mum.. It’s always nice spending my weekly couple of hours with mum but as it was my day off from work i was with her  and dad for lunch too.. but the day was marred somewhat by a couple of sad moments, some person in a invalid scooter hit a car and upturned his scooter in the road and was clearly hurt and taken to hospital, then the idiot driver behind me coming into our village at 5pm this evening, its a long windy road and slushy ice in most parts but clear in others so i managed a reasonable 50mph for the conditions and type of road until i had to slow right down thanks to a muntjac  deer standing still on the road so the said idiot behind me flashed their lights.. i did see the deer so didn’t slam my brakes at all, just steadly slowed down to about 30 before the deer moved,, then over took me only to slam on their brakes infront of me due to parked cars,,  i won’t be bullied in the car by anyone ,,  i wasn’t slow, roads were horrid and i didn’t want to total my car and injure my kids or hit a deer..  You my friend are a arse…a accident waiting to happen..

By Debbie

Past Few Months

10931441_10153091817814276_747472779393274396_n   Back in October 2013 I Joined up with Slimming World to support my mum in loosing some weight, it started well with me getting slimmer of the week most weeks and slimmer of the month a few times well by the following June 2014 i had lost 3 stone and got to target as i how not met a great man and my mind couldn’t really concentrate on healthy eating plan, a change of life at weekends and a new man too boot, so i made 12st 7 my target weight,  i do have some new health issues that are  being dealt with and i have been around target be it 3 or 4 lb higher then back down again since june,, so doing really well,  and just before before Christmas this year i was nominated Miss Slinky at my group and won, pretty chuffed i was.. Right now i am staying at this target as i am having a op in 2 weeks time just before valentines day, i know its just a date for some people but its the first with my fella and i wanted it to be special, but my health is important but its still made me very sad…  but after my op i am thinking about going down another stone but i will aim to get better first..  but i will do my level best to continue where i am whilst recovering…. so watch this space…

Wow Wow Wow My life has some what changed

happyWell Hello everybody,  I just visited my site as i now have a nice new laptop so i can site with my kids on the sofa,  so i thought i would have a look at my blog,  blimey How sad was I,   I have not been on here for 10 months i guess,  8th March Last year,   well I can tell you things have changed so much for me its unreal, but it’s very real and i am very happy…..

Where to do i begin? What should i say,,

Well back in Feb or March last year i made the conscious decision to remain single, ok i admit i would be hard not having a companion to share and do stuff with but i figured in females in my family like my aunt or my nan managed alone then so could I,  i must have put my foot in my mouth that moment..  Me and my boys we carrying on as Normal, going out doing stuff together, youngest was seeing his dad on a regular basis and we were in routine,, Happy Probably not but coping.  The reason i said i would stay single is that the couple of men i did have were users,  only there for one thing their self esteem or the joy of hurting women,  well No more,  well so i thought……

I love Media its great especially facebook i use it alot… I have a few friends connected with Congenital heart defects, old school friends and friends in the steam engine world,  as well as the odd family so now and again I get new friends, well through a friend a old friend from way back found me and yes she is female and No its not her i am seeing but she is the reason I am no longer alone… you see there is a massive connection between me and this past friend, My father and her grandad knew one another through the steam engine world, as in my dad helped her grandad on a Steam Ploughing engine and after years we got talking of times gone past..  remembering fond memories and the question popped up as to the whereabouts of the engine her grandad once owned…  So i set to find out and thanks to Facebook it didn’t take long..

All i had to do was to put a post up on a steam ploughing website and my question was answered, and turns out the engine was not that far from me in the first place only an hour as the crow flies I thought, so i knew where is was,  the man who came forward didn’t own it himself but his father, i wont insert names as its not right to do so without permission,  this lovely man tried hard to show me a photo of the engine as it is now but as we were not friends it didn’t really go to plan,,  but what i did see was something so not remotely engine like but a kite Buggy.. which i did know of cause the son did power kiting and the ex used to kite buggy,,  but i love to watch its so graceful.. anyway i said that what i could see wasn’t a engine but a buggy and we got talking..  all very innocently about kiting and steam mostly talking about my son and the kites he had , hours later we had planned a date to meet this man to collect and item called a Donkey Dick Harness used for kite flying all very innocent like after I was staying single…..

It’s Odd how things develop cause i thought i had a stalker after a little while cause all my posts were being liked,, even the shite one pmsl but i found myself adding this new man and we got chatting, maybe me being to heavy or flirty i have no idea but we were chatting ages and found we had more in coming with each other that i ever did have with the kids dad,,  Odd really..  after meeting up to collect this thing for my son and yes my son came too, after all i am not into meeting strange men and this item was for my son but by mid week i had found myself inviting this man round for a local kiting event and maybe even a beach day,,  I was already going to do it so wasn’t a problem if he said no Nothing to loose right,,  i now realise I would have lost everything i have right now…. The Most amazing man in my life..  my life has changed beyond all recognition..  i think since may we have only had one weekend where we have not seen one another,  parents on both sides have been met and Brothers have been met and all seem to be ok,  my only fault i guess is writing too much rubbish on faeebook lol my life is on there probably,,

8 months now , never been happier and it’s getting better and better and so looking forward to future what ever that may hold.. But i know one thing He loves me for me, for who i am, and he makes me smile daily even though i don’t seem him every day he is there every day to chat too…  that really means something special to me..

More to follow and with pictures hopefully…